|Friday, January 23, 2009|
I Am So Tired!
Man, I didn't realize just how exhausted I was....now that I can sit down for a few minutes, it hits me just how exhausting being a caregiver is. It's so strange not having to run around the house now. I find myself looking for things to do. Dad is adjusting very well.... I went back to work this past Tuesday.... I probably should have taken this week off as well, but I was ready to get back into the real world.
Thank you again to everyone for your support and caring during the past few years. I couldn't have kept my sanity without all of you!
Said by Kim at 7:17 PM
|Wednesday, January 14, 2009|
Mom's Journey Is Over
Well, my friends....mom's journey down the Alzheimers road is finally ended. She passed away Tuesday morning. I wish I could shake the image of finding her gone in the bed, though. It's strange...when I found her, I didn't really cry... of course, I had to go tell dad, and he immemdiately called 911. But I think I felt a sense of relief that she is no longer trapped in a mind of the past. Today was not reality for her... she was living about 25 years in the past. That was most frustrating for me.
But she is now free, and I hope she's smiling down on me. It sounds crazy, but I looked to the sky yesterday and asked her to give me a sign that she was ok. About an hour later, Momma cat from next door was sitting on the fence outside my computer room. Momma cat always seemed to come around and sit in front of the dining room window whenever mom was at her worst....I would go outside on the front porch and sit with Momma cat, and she would make me feel better. It's probably crazy to think that this was mom's sign....but whenever I needed some joy, there was Momma cat.
So now....it's time to start living again. Dad is doing amazingly well...he's happy that he was able to keep her at home, as she wished so many years ago. She didn't want to go into a nursing home, after seeing what her own mother went through in one. So dad is at peace.
I feel an emptiness now....I feel that I'm supposed to be doing something for her, but I don't need to anymore. I'm sure this will pass with time, and I can actually start learning some of my photo software now.
I thank all of you who have ridden this ride with me...it's been great comfort knowing that I could rant, and no one would judge me for it. I'm so happy that mom is now dancing up there in heaven...and that she is with her family again.
Rest in peace, Mom. I love you so much...I'm still your baby girl always!
Said by Kim at 7:34 PM
|Sunday, January 04, 2009|
New Year, NEW CAR!
HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone! I hope it was a wonderful holiday season for you!
How did I ring in the new year? By saying goodbye to my 1998 Pontiac Grand Prix GTP:
And saying HELLO to this as my new ride! A 2007 Chevy HHR LT...still under 10K miles!
I came close to not buying it, because I thought I'd miss my GTP far too much....but after driving the HHR, and realizing that things were starting to happen to my GTP, I knew it was time for something new!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ME!
Said by Kim at 1:06 PM